Name: Pam Von C
Photographer: Eames Alexander
1. What inspired you to get into this industry?
I've been in this industry since 2003, but a lot of my experience was from being behind the scenes as a makeup artist. One photographer asked me repeatedly to shoot with him, and I was always like 'Nah. That's not me' even though I've always wanted to model. When I was 17 or 18, I was interviewed by an agency, who told me I was too fat and too short to model. (I'm 5'4", and at the time I was probably 105lbs) so it discouraged me, mostly because I wasn't prepared to not eat chocolate or pizza ever again. Then, after having kids, I gained a lot of weight. Like, a lot. I was over 200lbs. I always thought 'well... I have a pretty face.' But that wasn't good enough for me, so then I worked my ass (literally) off and lost it all. And now I'm back to the weight I was before kids, except now I carry the weight of confidence.
2. How long have you been modeling?
I've been doing this for close to 5 years now.
3. Who is your favorite model?
There are so many models that I love. I don't know that I can narrow it down to just one. Adriana Lima, is one, because she's stunningly gorgeous. I'm also slightly enamoured by Megan Massacre. She's so beautiful and so badass. I love her style, and I love that she embraces being not your typical model.
4. Were you always comfortable in your own skin and in front of the camera?
Yes and no. I was, then I wasn't, then I was again, hahaha. I hated myself after gaining so much weight with pregnancy. Then I had to change, because I couldn't stand being so upset with myself all the time. So I worked really hard and once I saw the weight starting to come off, I became more confident. When I started 5 years ago, I still wasn't at my ideal weight. But I started to own it, because I learned that confidence is not a size, or a number on the scale. It's an attitude. It's how you carry yourself.
5. Did you have any mentors who really helped mold and guide you?
Not so much as a mentor, but I've had incredible support from this group of girls that I'm close with. My Vixen girls.
6. Do you have any tips for aspiring models in the industry?
Don't ever let anyone tell you you're not good enough. Don't ever let anyone discourage you. Just do it. You never know where you'll end up. Don't forget... There's a difference between constructive criticism, and body shaming. F*ck the haters!
Also, super important... I can't stress this enough... research your photographer! Honestly, I've been happy with mostly all of my shoots... but there have been one or two of ''those' photographers that were just trying to see a woman in lingerie, or who were inappropriate. Avoid that by doing some legwork.
7. Do you have a WTF moment at a shoot?
Ummm... one of the aforementioned photographers I was shooting with, suddenly was like 'ok, now lose the bra and we'll do this shot like this'... and I was like 'um, wtf no.'
See, this is why you need to research your photographer! It wasn't about posing for an 'implied nude' shot. I'm good with those, those can be so creative and beautiful... It was more the manner in which he demanded I should and assumed I would. He was then super unprofessional afterward. Needless to say I didn't work with him again!
8. What are some of the biggest revelations you've discovered through modelling?
That I am a goddess. I am beautiful in any shape or size. I have, and still am, learning how to love and accept myself on every single level. Physically, yes. That took some time, but I'm there now. I no longer look in the mirror and criticize my flaws. But also emotionally and spiritually, I am beautiful, strong and confident. I command respect and accept no less than what I deserve. I am a goddess not because I want everyone to worship me. It has nothing to do with everyone else's thoughts or opinions on me. I am a goddess because I feel like one in my heart and in my soul.
9. Tell us something random about yourself.
I'm so not a girlie-girl. I'm into sports and cars. I'm a huge hockey fan, I drive stick, I can fix a flat, and probably could change my oil if I had to. Growing up I didn't play with dolls or Barbies. I played with cars, dinosaurs and trains. I kicked my brothers ass in MortalKombat while he kicked mine in GoldenEye. Also, when I was younger my dream job (actually it still is) is to be a Stunt Driver. I have always wanted to professionally/theatrically drive cars like Jason Statham. I just don't know if my heart could take all the Audis and Beemers smashing up.
10. What are you most proud of?
My damn self. I worked so hard to be where I'm at. Emotionally, physically and spiritually. I've been through hell. I've had a rough go with some things in my past, and I could have easily given up, but I didn't. I was burned to the ground, and rose up out of the ashes and transformed into the best version of myself. This is when I really started to love myself and live my life for me. This is why I have my Phoenix tattoo across my sternum and stomach. A constant reminder of what a badass, strong, beautiful and fiery goddess I am. My next tattoo will be commemorating my inner goddess and I'm so excited for that.
11. When it's all said and done, what do you want to be remembered as?
As the woman who conquered her own heart. The woman who wore her uniqueness and individuality like a badge, and the woman who embraced her inner goddess and set her free.
12. Any last words?
I'm part of this amazing group of women called the BPDVixens. We're representatives of this wicked brand called theBPD, or TheBeardedPantieDroppers. Basically it's a community where beards and beard lovers unite, so we can share our mutual fondness of facial hair. So, is Vixens, we're all different ages, shapes and sizes, come from different backgrounds, and live all over the world. There are about 100 of us now. TheBPD has brought a few of these women really close to me, and we've developed these unbelievable, unbreakable bonds. As silly as it might seem, I've met these girls online, and the ones I've become close with, have become some of my best friends. It's so great that I connected with a few that live close to me, but a couple even live in the US and even as far as Australia. They have supported me every single step of the way, on my journey to become more enveloped in this industry, but also they're super supportive of all of my life decisions and changes I make. I love them like sisters, and it all started because of our love for beards.